Cable. Welcome to the "A N Other club" it is a lifetimes free membership. You are not the only member the rest of the worlds population is with you. I did suffer badly from the "I WANT" syndrome though after close to a life time of "I want" I did manage to obtain the things that did matter a lot, I was lucky I purchased the gun I wanted in my twenties so that "I Want" was solved early on in my life though there are other things on my list.

The only lessons in my life I truly did learn from where the ones I paid for!