First I want to thank Dave Weber for providing this rich forum. It has attracted some of the finest people I can imagine. They participate and help each other like good friends should. They offer praise and sometimes criticism but I always feel with a good spirit. You have offered me friendship and a haven for my troubled mind of the last three years. It has kept me sane. You have helped me, befriended me, hung out with me at events and on odd occasions when I traveled. I now have friends across the country that I know I can call on should I need them. I have been fortunate to hunt and shoot with members here from both coasts who have become close and valued friends. Those of you who know members Jent Mitchell and Dick Baum should know they have badgered me to come out and shoot with them at events coming up to get me out of the house and try to start my life again.
I have not been reading your posts for the last half a dozen weeks or so and posted for the first time yesterday. I just did not care. My guns have been in the safe feeling lonely for that time and some weeks before that and I just did not care.
Sixty one years ago and little girl was born in a displaced persons camp in Salzburg, Austria being conceived somewhere between Siberia and Austria. She lived there five years with the horrors she saw as a result of the war and what it did to her people. She sailed across an ocean to Canada and five years later she crossed the border to the US and finally NYC and became a citizen at 16 years old. She found me on a bench in the hall outside Calculus 1 at the City College of New York. I kissed her for the first time 44 years ago and instantly fell deeply in love with her. We married 4 years later. My fortieth anniversary would have been the last day of this month. I tell you this because my heart is empty searching for new meaning in life. Three weeks ago she lost her three year battle with cancer and at her request I traveled with my sons and daughters in law and an Angel that befriended me(another long story for for the future) on the long 10 hour flight and laid her to rest in Israel.
In our next life I expect her to travel across the ocean again looking for me. I hope she finds me.
Milt
