Hello Tony;
Keep a positive attitude if you can and keep fighting. I can understand what you are going through because I have cancer also. It's a rare and aggressive form of Leukemia called Multiple Myeloma / Plasma Cell Leukemia. I was diagnosed about 4 years ago when my son was 14 and I have had 2 bone marrow transfers since then. I am currently in a drug trial for a new chemo therapy that is showing some promising signs.
I look at it that I have had 4 bonus years to live and I am taking advantage of it. I have been making a yearly hunting trip to Wyoming to hunt antelope and loving every minute of it. Last summer my son and I took a 2 week road trip (4,500 miles) to see the sights of the American West. We had a wonderful time.
It helps me to focus on the future and look forward to events in my life and not dwell on the past. BTW, I got married last June to a wonderful woman (the second go round for both of us) who has been my rock going through this. I have a wonderful support group of friends in the gun world that have also helped me greatly.
I have always been a fan of "black humor" and I make jokes about my cancer and the inevitable end. It is off putting to some people, but it helps me deal with it. I have been known to announce my presence by saying "dead man walking" when entering a room.
We are here for you Tony. I would be happy to chat with you when ever you feel the need.
