This is truly a sad situation on multiple fronts:
It heartbreaking I'm sure for your wife to know she'll probably lose you at far too young an age.
It's a shame for someone with your talent to not be able to continue in a field you truly love.
It's a loss to all of us who for the most part are cyber friends but have really enjoyed communicating with you thru the years.
You are regularly in my and my wife's prayers and we still believe and hope for a miracle.
jim

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