Ted, My sympathy for your loss and difficulty. It is a mystery why we all suffer these things, other than it is life. Hopefully someday we will know the answers. I lost my older brother 2 years ago and will never be able to ask his wife about the things he left and she will never volunteer. At eleven years of age he sold greeting cards and bought a Marlin single shot 22lr, all on his own- that was my older brother. This was, of course, back when a boy could do those things. That little rifle is the only thing that I can think of, of his, I would like to have, but I remember him and his story and that will be enough. Best to you and yours, Kurt