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Tony, not being religious all I can say is that you are a very brave and inspirational person and I respect you for that. Good luck with the treatment my friend. I'm sure that in years to come your young son will know what a great dad you are. Lagopus.....

King, I am ready to go at any moment. The injustice is that younger folk die and I am still standing. Chops

Tony,

Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

cDog

Yeah, I know what you mean, Chops. You and I have seen the picture show and we're where the show was when we came in! Regards, King

I really don't know what you say. You are such lovely and caring people. I went to the hospice today with Marie. It was really nice, but I noticed how young I was compared to everyone else. I am quietely resolved over it because I knew it would be like that.

The good thing is they are there as a second line of defence, If I can't die at home, it will be here. They are setting up a plan where Marie can have reactive drugs in the fridge for me so that if anything changes quickly my dear wife can inject me if needed.

I go for a CT scan and mask to be made today. They expect total brain Radio to start Wed for 5 days. They are going to nuke the whole brain to tackle anything they can't see. ANYTHING I will take to stay alive.

My plans:
I've sold 3 guns. They are going out this week. I thank the two people on these forums for their bids and I hope the guns will deliver on their promise.

I am going to finish my book. I have at least another 40-70 pages in there and I start tonight. Maybe if it's good enough someone might publish it or at the very least I can do some sort of online publishing with E-commerce build in so that people can pay a nominal paypal or other fee to download and have a copy. All proceed to the kids fund of course.

Lastly, I'm tidying up that 10 bore ML a bit and fiddling about with guns. I will try and get to Holts but lets see.

Lastly, Lastly, I am a fighter. We are trying to put it behind and look forward. I'm totally fedup with being upset about this. We had a very hard conversation with Will my 10 year old last night who asked if I would be alive in September to see him at his new school. I cannot explain to you all here how hard it is to have that conversation. I had to be honest..I hope to see the summer son, but if it doesnt go well we don't know about Easter. But know one thing I will be here for you and we will all hold hands if it comes sooner.

Thank you guys your support is reward for me being part of such an amazing virtual bunch of people.

T

Hi Tony and thanks for the update.

That must have been such a difficult conversation to have with your son, for your wife too. It always surprises me how resilient the young can be about these issues in the long term.

I was thinking of going to Holts next month so if I can be helpful do let me know; happy to drive you there and back or whatever you wish.

Praying hard for you.

Tim

Hi Tony,

I'll be watching for your e-book. Sounds like a great idea to me. Hope it's jam packed with details about your way to tackle a fine gun.

Craig

Tony's message reminded me of a story my son told me yesterday.

His daughter and son-in-law were discussing serious issues involving their jobs at dinner; listening their 2 1/2 year old son Max, adopted at nine months from South Korea.

Discussion ended, Lindsay and Josh went on with their meal.

"What's the matter," Max said, after a couple minutes had passed.

"What do you mean, Max?"

"Why did you stop talking?" he said.

Talking is key to everything, especially when living on the edge.

KB, you are right. I am going through this as well. Though, my "best used date" is later. My daughter was 15 when I was diagnosed. You try to shield them, but it doesn't really work as it just opens more questions that roll around in their heads in the middle of the night. Kids know allot more than given credit for. Many kids will want to shield their feelings from their loved ones as well. But it can eat them up inside. They need lots of hand holding, sitting on your lap, hugs and kisses and know that you really love them and are not wanting to leave them. They need to see your tears and be held to hear your heart beating n your chest. Spouses even go through this possibly harder. My wife was so hurt that I would leave her now. The spinning of emotions is greater than can be imagined.

Obviously, NO living human being escapes this world without some sadness and grief, including royalty and even President's.